Dreams

I can remember the first dream job that I had. I was five years old and wanted to be a doctor.
A year later I wanted to be a teacher, then a vet and….ect…ect

At thirteen I decided that no matter what I did at some point in my life I wanted to own a bookstore with a small cafe adjoining.
Red wood counters, soft lighting, red brick walls, big comfy chairs for patrons to come in and enjoy themselves, drink coffee, read and just relax…A place where people could come to and forget their troubles for just a moment…

I’m 22 now and that still remains my dream. I’m broke right now and have no fund to follow that dream since I am also just searching for a job. But I know that sometime in the future I will make it.

No matter what happens, where I end up, that dream of mine will come true.

Thinking about this has made me wonder, what are your dreams? What do you want to get out of your life?

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Writing

I have always wanted to be a writer, write a book or a series. Sadly I’m one of those people who tend to criticize themselves too much.
I write and re-write and then follow that cycle over again and then to push the pin in further I don’t show my work to other people.

I don’t understand why that is, but here are some options;

Fear of Failure? –  I doubt that since I failed quite a few times in my life and I’m still here.
Fear of Success? – Does that means people will be expecting more from me? shudders.
Fear of Commitment – Committing myself to such a task…Sounds hard but not impossible.
Fear of expectations – Well I think anyone can buckle under pressure..But..Am I?

Either way, these are all excuses that I am tired of making. I want to be a writer, be it write books, reviews, blogs or articles I want to do it.

I want to commit myself to writing.
I want to Succeed.
I want to exceed peoples expectations.

…But most of all…I want to stop procrastinating.

I might not be the greatest when it comes to grammar, but that’s alright after all English is my third language.

I might not be the best when it comes to endings, but I can work on that.

What I am good at is coming up stories, creating characters and falling in love with the different worlds in my mind…

Generation of Books

I have had a few people, asking me why I spend my time reading books. As they said to me, and I shall paraphrase this:

‘they give you nothing, are boring and just a whole lot of a wasted time’ …at that point I had to turn away and calmly walk away from the person, why? well that is really simple, you can’t discuss or argue with someone who is illiterate. They simply won’t understand what you are trying to say and will irritate you with, their non-exsistant ‘Logic.’ I bring this topic up because it is close to my heart. Today I was reading an article on ‘modern young adults’  and I remembered a quote by ‘Abbas El Akkad’ who, was an Egyptian writer he died in 1964 and wrote over 100 books.

He writes, and I quote:

“…I do not read for I have renounced life,
I read because one life is just not enough for me…”

I think that it is a wonderful quote. Only one sentence long. But with such great meaning behind it.

Humans are a curious species.
We learn and grow, we record things for future generations, create stories of other, wonderful worlds and are always evolving.

Or at least we used to be…

What has happened to this generation? I have met so many people who, if you ask what they like to read will answer with a horrific sentence:

“… I don’t read, unless you’re counting magazines…”

This has been bothering me for a long time.
I hate how superficial the whole world as become, we’re all about selfies, twerking, clubs and getting drunk, there is more drama than learning in our lives, and I’m talking about teenagers from the 13 years old and going up.

Honestly it’s a pity how little of our generation enjoys picking up a book and being transported to that imaginary world. It is a real pity that we are starting to lack imagination…

The begining

I have a hard time sticking to one subject since I enjoy quite a few. That is why I have decided to create this ‘blog’ and hopefully in the near future ‘vlog’ right now thought, I want to put things down in writing.
Thoughts, likes, dislikes.
I would also love to review books, movies, tv-shows and a lot of other things too.
Even thought I don’t look or sound it, I am not one of those people who is comfortable around other people. I wish I was and I will be trying to change that about myself so that I can experience life to its fullest potential.
I do hope that everyone who reads my blog will enjoy the content, comment and share their views on subjects and just in general help me adapt to being social!