Winter

met you once again in Winter,
But, the warmth you showed,
Reminded me of Summer.

My heart had frozen over, oh, so long ago,
I was happy to forget,
What love had meant to me,
What you had meant to me.

So why did you come back?
and once again allowed my wounds to open?

Did you remember, the first time we saw each other?
You had smiled oh, so, brightly.
Did you remember, those first words,
That made, my heart so tender?
Did you remember, how you broke me,
How Winter settled in my soul?

No, all you did remember,
Was how much you needed warmth,
How much you needed love,
How much you needed me.

When you came back,
I had already forgotten.
I had already let go of those blue eyes.
I had already given up the wait.
I wasn’t lonely.
Unlike You.

I wish You had taken my answer.
No.
I wish you had left again.
Before, I had fallen back in Love with you.
Before, I allowed the ice to melt.

…And Spring had brought us pain again,
Again, I lost you…

I will never forget the warmth,
You had brought back to me,
I will never forget that smile that was meant for my eyes only.

You had changed,
Evolved, but still,
The pain was visible in those  blue hues,
I loved you even more this time.
Even when I refused to show it.

You had hurt me once,
You had hurt me twice,But in your words so delicate, I knew
I had hurt you too.

Now you are gone,
And it’s too late for us.

But now I have to let you go,
Life still goes on for me.

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Mistakes

I’m going to say it….
We all know that humans make ‘bad’ decisions.
There is no one alive who hasn’t done it.
So, why do you judge people so harshly?
Especially when they are your friends and family.
You’ve done something yourself.

But then again;
It’s so much easier to see another persons faults.

I loathe people who look at a someone, not knowing anything about them, their lives, situations, mental state and just open their mouths because they want to make themselves feel better…

Why are there human beings who thrive when others are miserable because of them?
One could argue that it is due to their own complexes, their flaws. They are miserable and so they want others to feel the same.

But again…I have to ask why?

The way I judge and see people who have made bad decisions:

You have made a mistake, as your friend and fellow human being I will tell you so. Then, I will sit and listen while you cry and moan about it. Why? Because I am your friend and I care. No matter how bad your mistake is I am not going to leave…I will always forgive you.

Even after saying this, it does not mean I will let someone walk all over me, oh no if someone tries to wipe their feet as if I’m a doormat I will turn around and without a second of a doubt walk away.

There is a big difference between someone who is using you and someone who has made a mistake and is sorry.

I have made plenty of mistakes, and I’ve been judged by so many people, who for a long period had me under their control. I didn’t know how to cope. I was sorry, in pain and ashamed of my own flaws.

Then, I realized.

They have NO right to judge me, and I shouldn’t feel bad because of them.

As Eleanor Roosevelt once said:

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.

You know what? she was right.
I have learned to love myself and no one can hurt me. Not even the people who want to the most.

I would also like you all to just remember.

Don’t judge. Be there for the people around you, even if you don’t know it,  you could be, that one link in their chain, that doesn’t break and keeps them from falling apart, and making that final mistake.